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Hello, beautiful. Thank you for being here with me today at the well. And thank you for giving this gift to your body, to your mind and your spirit. Let's bring our heart into a quick attunement. So we're ready for the download today, which is really important. It's about committing to the self. So just deepen your breath and let your breath breathe you from the heart. And just take a few seconds here to come back into your body to really be present with this maybe duty that you have to yourself to listen and turn the duty that you came to the well with into desire, desire to heal, desire to become a better version of yourself. And that's really at the meat of the center of what we're going to be downloading.
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about that spirit is showing me that sometimes when we talk about the ego it sort of has like a negative connotation doesn't it it sounds so uh inauthentic and prideful but we are going to talk about the ego but we can talk about it from the vantage of your very authentic personality you know being aware of our will is incredibly helpful to our growth and it's a great way to.
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micro shift so i'm going to say that again being aware of our will our self-will where are we driven by yes ego would be probably the most understandable word but we can place it in a arena of, personality. My personality tends to do this. My personality desires this, but I won't give it to myself. My will wants me to lose weight, right? My ego mind has desires for me. And I want to show.
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you how tricky this can be. Some of us talk about being creative, and April is a lot about being creative, not because it's in the astrology, but because it was in the original download for this month. And we were imagining that we've got this palette of colors to paint from, and they get really muddied. And I'll tell you how it gets muddied in relationship to our personality.
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Our boundaries are not clear enough from where we create, so the colors of our life and our manifestation and our desires to be really present with manifestation and creation isn't clear. It's been muddied, and that's because the boundaries of our ego will versus our soul will to get it. The ego sometimes keeps us from our dreams just because of duty or just obligation, right?
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I want to bring you back to that sense of soul creation, some of what we feel like we want to correct in our lives. is to have time to be more creative, to be more aware of what our soul is asking us to do. And that's our intuition. And that's our instinct. But we get separated from that.
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so easily, so easily do our good intentions take us elsewhere. I promise you, and I know this sounds like a very lofty promise. There is always time once you've committed to your soul purpose. The time part opens up. I really have a great example. I just spirit just popped in my head.
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It's maybe not the one we would look for. But when I was seeing that truth, source gave me a, an example, maybe so I would be a better, um container for as a vehicle of um explaining how this whole process explaining how this whole process really works inside of us it's kind of a silly one but it's a recent one and honestly.
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it's maybe not that silly i'm just being hard on myself i don't really gain weight from normal like ways that humans gain weight i gain weight more um based on the cortisol levels from picking up on people's feelings around me and so even though i actually eat a very very healthy healthy healthy diet um that most people would consider that's their weight loss living i live like that.
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all the time, I have my splurges, but I'm not an overeater and I eat well. But if I'm constantly under stress, which is most of the time, it doesn't seem like that because my voice is calm and I really manage it well and I learned how to do that young. But inside I feel all the pain of the world and I'm not exaggerating. Like I literally feel constant terror, seriously.
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I also feel constant ecstasy. And when I'm in a state of obligation, which is most of the time, I really am always feeling that someone else's needs are more important than my own. I haven't mastered this. So I've got a lot of growth to do around this. And I also have a lot of. people who need things from me in my world. But I just finally thought, I'm very strong.
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physically, and I'm just built. I'm almost built like a man, honestly, even though I am considered a small to medium bone structure. But my, my, just my girth of my barrel chestedness, you know, um, I'm physically like, tall and built like my warrior dad and brothers, oldest brother, youngest brother. And so I need to train my body. And I always did, like a warrior, I always did.
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until my divorce. And then, I don't know, it kind of crumbled, maybe two years before my divorce, I kind of crumbled. But before then, I was always strong. Strong, strong, strong. And, um, it's been weird, but the last few years I keep finding all the reasons why I don't apply myself and I'm not sure, but I, I haven't always applied myself recently and I can do a lot more.
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exercise than other people and still not be, you know, training at my pace. I probably need to be training like more of like athlete. This is the thing I'm trying to say is something really changed in me. And I'm going to tell you what it was. It was starting this program. It's just hitting me right now. And around Christmas, um, when Sean and I, this, this download came through that we were supposed to just build this well, you know, in another dimension where women can.
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really meet each other, but importantly download the living waters of source energy, because that's the quantum field. It took me about four months because my will kept putting everything else. So I would still do hours of pool work and eat well, but I wasn't ever reaching my true potential and I've never really liked to lift weights, but I kept hearing I need to fast and I need to lift weights.
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And I would say just in the last few days, all of a sudden, I just got the courage to do that on the level that I should do it. And I don't know why, but I think it's the buildup of the micro shifts of actually downloading these downloads for you. And then when I listen to them daily, as you do, it's literally like I'm listening to them for the first time. And so they're definitely a direct source channel from spirit, but I can tell.
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you that i didn't know i was going to talk about this because i didn't know it was related to what i started downloading on until spirit just inspired me with that example but i started i started training recently and just intuitively because i've been a sports trainer before in my life and i started training intuitively with like a very different kind of approach but one that's.
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given me a lot of joy and i only do it as long as i want to and i've popped into the sauna which i knew i was supposed to be doing but i'm spending longer in there but i was like trying to cook myself you know and i made it a little bit lower and then i just sat longer it's like i think what i'm telling you is there's an ask inside of your soul and, sometimes we set the bar too high. And so we don't get around to doing it. But what is the ask.
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in your soul that spirit's been trying to say, well, just do this? Like, are you supposed to do art when all you've been doing is trying to make money? And then you're too tired when you get home to do art? Are you supposed to be baking? And you just don't get around to it because it's easier to put something in the microwave? Are you supposed to be growing some food or tending to.
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plants or writing? Are you supposed to be doing something for you, making clothes for yourself or knitting? Or what's your ask inside? What is your soul asking for you to study? What is your, soul asking for you to find in a hobby i know some of you are actually good examples of already answering this and you've started businesses from your hobbies and from your loves i i see it as as.
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your mentor and so proud of you um how can you give more life to that through the living water of the well i mean it's not just an imaginary place the living water is the plasma of the light, frequency and action the living water at the well is the plasma of the light frequency at the well and then when you go into that fifth dimensional space that quantum space.
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which is zero point you know there's nothing there except for potentiality, imagination imaginarium, When you come here and you listen and you come to change, what kind of commitments can you start giving to your soul that is more aligned than just the causality of your experiential self saying, I need to do this because my children need it.
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I need to do that because my husband always has, you know, to meet these guys at that time and I've got to cover that or all the little things, you know, all of the things, my business mentorship, you know, my employees need that or just put that on the shelf for one second, just for today, just for right now, shelf that and sync up again with this living water, this plasma.
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This plasma of living water, seriously, it is like, it's the highest frequency you can reach and still be on the planet. It's where we make our changes. And so, you know, Jesus used the living water. The living water is so potent that entities must flee in its presence. It's that strong. Call the living water to wash over your soul.
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Imagine that the angels are baptizing you and bring in divine source energy. I love to bring Christ consciousness. It's so pure. Christ was such a wonderful living example. When you just move into that frequency of the Christ consciousness, it's so holy. And for many of you, you're entering the holy days of Christianity. And just go into like that, that space that you've maybe been in, in the Lenten, the Lenten is sacrifice, you know, so we all think up here in what do we, what do we sacrifice?
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What do we lay on the altar of our hearts to refrain from when we're kind of in a place that we're not just indulgent, we're trying to refrain, so that we can really feel what we need. And if we're always satiating that, maybe through a glass of wine, instead of, you know, opening up your journal and writing your feelings, or a donut, instead of bread.
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Or, you know, sitting in front of too much TV. Or too much YouTube or too much social media? Where are you getting lost where you don't hear the message of your soul's transmission of, do you want to make a couple micro shifts here? Do you want to start feeling your body more? Do you want to start feeling your desires more, your wants? And truly commit to something that creates change in your life.
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That's the shift from what does my personality really want in this moment and crave? That's maybe not answering to that larger, be creative, be entrepreneurial, be good to your body, be present, be in your emptiness, be in your joy, be in your collapsing into the self of really listening into that soul wisdom.
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that's so deep into your root chakra, and we're going to do more work there. We're just going to touch on that right now. What is your blankety blank blank that you really need to give yourself? Just give me one blankety blank blank and know what that is. And if you don't know what it is, listen to this again and keep getting closer, even if you don't make it all the way through because you're too busy, right? Because the outside world is keeping you distracted.
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Think about the blank and fill it. What is my soul calling me to do? And recognize the personality is weighing in. The personality isn't naughty. It's just not disciplined. And the personality wants to get some joy somewhere. So it's not giving the soul what it really needs, but it's trying to give it the next best thing. But let's not try to shoot for the next. Next, best thing right now. Let's shoot for the thing.
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What does your soul want? And fill that blank. Thank you so much for sitting with me in this wrinkly energy in a way because it's been calling to you and you haven't answered. But just stay with me. Know that I give you so much love and we're all holding space for you to fill that blank. Bless you. And we'll meet again tomorrow at the well.
